A New Adventure

When Adam and I decided to try for Eve it was a hard decision to make. Financially we weren't very well off. We were ok but there wasn't a ton of extra money. We both wanted to be parents so we decided to start trying. During that first month of trying Adam seemed like he was having second thoughts. Looking back I think he was really worried on how we would afford to have a child. I decided that if we didn't get pregnant that cycle I was going to put TTC on hold until Adam seemed more comfortable with the idea. Sometimes I think he just agrees with whatever I want because he wants to make me happy. Well I was pregnant that first cycle. We both seemed excited and Adam made every effort to be able to be at all of my appointments and be supportive. The problem with my pregnancy was we dealt with it in different ways. I wanted to be pampered and have a celebration over every aspect. Adam was scared so he never showed the level of excitement I expected and this made us both really cranky. We were both overjoyed with the outcome it was just the journey that was rough.

Last year we started talking about our timeline for number 2 and I convince him that we should start trying that cycle. He was ok but as the cycle wore on it began to look like the same emotions were overcoming Adam. I think part of it this time was he was in a job he really didn't like. I was hurt and we decided together to put TTC on hold for another year. In that year we have talked a lot about it. He told me he wants another kid but could deal without the pregnancy. He said he was always so worried about me and the baby. He also said he could live without the mood swings :O). I explained to him what I needed was someone who was excited and not crabby about every little detail. I think getting our needs out in the open really took a weight off of our shoulders about the TTC adventure we were about to enter again.

DH and I are excited to be trying for number 2 (currently waiting to O). I think he is truly ready for another child and it isn't him just doing it to make me happy. I am really happy that we waited. He has been saying encouraging things like he is really excited. Yesterday melted my heart a little. I was sitting in a chair and Adam came and sat on top of me and Eve came an sat on top of him. I said, "what is this the whole family sits on mom day?" Adam replied, "Hopefully next year there will be 4 on this chair instead of just 3." I almost started crying because that is what I was looking for. He has been talking more about TTC than me. I love my husband and can't wait to make another precious life with him.