Update.

This week has been a wild ride for sure. My final project was supposed to be ready for implementation on Sunday. I keep e-mailing my teacher and she hasn't responded and hasn't opened up the final piece I need so I am in limbo land with it. On Sunday my mom and I got into it again. We decided to finally move out. I ended up taking Eve up to Adam's parents for the week on Monday. All week we were moving and working. I am exhausted. I found a new daycare for Eve. I refuse to let my mom see Eve again until she agrees to go see a therapist. IMy parents are really mad at me but I need to do what is best for my family. So for the next few weeks I will be off and on because I have so much stuff to accomplish and set in place. Adam and I feel really good about our decision and feel like we are going to finally get to be adults. I think we have had such a dependent relationship with my parents that it is nice to get a break from them. I really hope my mom/parents can work everything out so that at some point in the future we can have a relationship with them but I don't want my daughter to be raised thinking a love/hate roller coaster relationship is ok. I feel the worst for Eve and my dad. They are best friends and it makes me sad that they won't get to spend as much time together but overall we are already seeing a change in Eve's relationship with us. It is nice to actually feel like I am her MOM not just her birth parent. The laughter in our home can return. I didn't realize how restricted I felt like when we were living there but Adam and I feel a huge sense of relief in being able to only answer to each other. My parents have a lot of challenges facing them in the future but Adam and I both realized that we can't fix their problems. We will still support them but we need to do what is best for our family first.

The sadness continues.

Eve has been asking me all day to visit her other grandma/grandpa (Adam's parents). I told her we had to wait until Daddy came home to go visit them. She literally asked me about it every 20 minutes today and would be so upset when I said we had to wait. Well as I was getting ready to go Adam calls and says don't bother getting ready. Yep they canceled. They are in Sedona putting an offer on a house and won't be back tonight. So we will see if they will actually see us tomorrow. They will be here for a whole week and we will be lucky if we get to see them 1 day. But who knows maybe they will move here but I am not actually going to hold my breath on that one. Eve was so sad she actually cried real tears (not the fake ones she uses to get whatever she wants). She wanted to see them all day and I promised her all day and then I had to break my promise to her. As soon as Adam gets home she is going to call them and cry to them. I doubt it will make a difference because they only seem to be worried about themselves. I think it sucks that I ended up looking like the jerk breaking my promise to her. You would think I would have learned in the 6.5years I have know them to never make a promise that is connected to them. I hate breaking promises. On a good note my Dad set up this stupid karaoke thing for kids and Eve is rocking out right now with him. It is really cute. I am glad that my parents don't disappoint her. I missed the video of them rocking together but I did catch Eve singing the I love mommy song. Usually we sing together where I say I love Eve in my biggest opera voice and then she says I love Mommy. It is really obnoxious when we do it because we are both singing on the top of our lungs but it is our thing and makes us both laugh.