37 week update.

On Thursday we had a growth u/s. He is already measuring 8lbs. 14oz. That is 2 lbs more than Eve was when she was born. She thinks I might have been borderline diabetic and that is why he got so big because I have only gained 17 lbs. I am 3cm and 50% effaced. I was given a few options on what to do since he is so big and Adam and I have been in discussion ever since in regards to the situation. Basically the options given to us were:

1.) Wait to go into labor naturally or get induced around 5/5 and see what happens which after 9 lbs my dr. recommends a c/s due to the risk of baby getting stuck (which gives me until Monday approx. to not have a 9 lb kid.)
2.) Get an amnio done to see if his lungs are fully developed and induce on Monday which could result in a c/s.
3.) Schedule a c/s for sometime after 5/5.

Obviously at this point we are not going with option number 2. Amnio scares me so we won't go with that. Adam is really scared about something happening to me or the baby and is voting for the c/s even though both of us are having a hard time believing he is so big. Maybe I am just in denial but I don't feel like I am carrying a huge baby. I honestly have been much more comfortable this time around. I really really really don't want a c/s. I mean if that is the only way to have him fine but I would like to try for a vaginal delivery. So I think last night we finally made a plan of action that will make us both feel a little more comfortable. If I don't go into labor by Monday I will call the Dr. and ask for another u/s to be done at a different location. I know she might not agree with me but a c/s is a major surgery and if I was ever faced with surgery I would want a second opinion so therefore I think it is fair for me to say let me get another look at this baby and see how rapidly he is growing and if the second u/s tech agrees with the firsts estimate of his weight. From there we would reassess the situation and make a decision about what to do. I want a healthy baby more than anything but I also don't want to have a surgery that I will regret especially if they are off in his measurements.

This whole situation has been eating me up inside since Thursday and I feel robbed of being able to enjoy the last part of my pregnancy. I am all for u/s but I think in this case I would have almost rather been ignorant because I seriously have cried over this everyday. I have super mixed emotions on it. I know that there are worse things that could happen than a c/s but this is not how I pictured the outcome of this pregnancy and I have issues with things not going how I planned them in my head and I know this is totally my issue and God is probably just using this as an example for me to trust in him what will be best and I am trying and praying about it that I can let go of control and let God decide. I am most scared about what will happen both physically and emotionally postpartum wise if I do end up with a c/s but I will blog about that at a later time.

We're not having a baby or anything...

or at least this is what you would think based on both of our parents current actions. My mom's best friend purchased a plane ticket for her to come visit her in WI. She will be gone from April 28-May 7. My ILs are driving to WI and probably leaving on Monday (the 27) and will be gone for at least a week. I would imagine they will be gone for 2 weeks since it take 2-3 days to drive each way. So if I don't go into labor before Sunday there is a good chance the only family who will be here is my dad. Honestly I am ok with it I find it more ammusing than anything since both my mom and my mother-in-law are already calling to see if I am in labor yet. The only thing I am sad about is my mom being away after the baby is born and Adam having to go back to work although this probably won't be an issue. My dad happily agreed to watch Eve while I am in labor even if it means I have to call him at work to come get her. I am just a little shocked since both sets of parents just dropped this on us in the last couple of days. At least I won't have to entertain both sets of parents in the hospital together.

Eve Won!

I entered Eve into a photo contest to win Elmo live tickets. The criteria was to take a picture of your child or family enjoying the newest line of Shamrock products. I entered this picture and Eve won 4th place. I am so excited because we are going to go see Elmo Live! Eve was jumping up and down when I told her. We went last year and it was really cute but expensive. Now hopefully this baby cooperates so that I can go along to the show.

The Excitement Grows.

Last night I was having slightly painful contractions for 2 hours that were about 5 minutes apart and about 45 seconds long. I was worried I was going to be going to the hospital that night when I have so much stuff to do still before he comes. I decided to try and get some sleep and that seemed to make them slow down. I am still getting an occasional contraction but they don't hurt anymore. I am getting excited to meet him and am in desperate need to know if I am making progress at all but I don't go to the Dr. until Thursday.

Today was a lovely day. I woke up and Adam helped me get ready to go out (because that is a real task these days) and I met up with some ladies from work for a little baby shower luncheon. It was so sweet. We were at the restaurant for almost 3 hours chatting. It was absolutely beautiful outside. My mom took Eve to a big sister class at the hospital we are going to deliver at today. She had a lot of fun there. My mom said a baby was born right when they got there because they play Brahms lullaby throughout the hospital when every baby is born. My Dad took Eve to the local global village festival and they made a birdhouse together. Adam got to spend the day playing trains. He also put together the baby swing and bouncy chair. (Last nights labor scare finally got him to finish up some baby stuff.)

Tomorrow our good friend who lives in Colorado is coming to visit for the day because she is in town for work. We haven't seen her in about a year and miss her so much. We are a little sad that her husband isn't coming too because they are just such a fun couple to hang out with.

This weekend has been so relaxing and enjoyable so far. It has been so nice since I felt like the week was such a grind. I am finally starting to relax and am so looking forward for Milo. I can't believe he is going to be here in a matter of weeks. I feel my heart swelling to make room for all the extra love I am going to have for him in addition to the love of Eve. I can't wait to hold him in my arms and see what a great big sister Eve is going to be.

Easter

Looking for eggs!

Excited for what was in the eggs!

We had the nicest relaxing Easter. We were awoken by Eve who was so excited yet waited patiently for us to get out of bed which was a huge accomplishment for the world's most impatient child. She searched around the house and found all 42 of the eggs the Easter bunny hid. She thought it was really silly that the Easter bunny hid one in the fridge and told everyone about it. She played most of the morning with her new toys.

On the scavenger hunt!

At noon we went to my parents. They had set up a scavenger hunt for her presents. They spoil her too much. The hunt was so much fun and she knew exactly what all the clues that I read to her meant. We ran around the house collecting prizes for half an hour. It was really special that my parents put so much thought into it and included all the special things at their house that they share with her. Some of the clues were: Where you will find grandpa juice (vitamin water), where the ghostbusters are (she is obsessed with watching the Ghostbusters movie), where your pillow is etc. It seriously was so sweet. For the rest of the day we hung out and watched Bedtime stories. We then ate dinner and came home. I couldn't have asked for a better Easter and Eve seemed to enjoy herself.

Grandma

My grandma passed away today. I am really sad about it. I thought I would be ok with it because honestly she was not herself and suffering a lot. But I grieve because when I think of her I think of the person she used to be. The person who always spoiled me and would look through the family picture books and tell me stories of our relatives for hours. She would sit on the ground with me and play card and board games. She gave me the gift of a college education and always treated me like I was perfect. I loved her so much and so did Eve. Even though Eve never got to meet the grandma I adored growing up she could see the goodness in her and loved spending time with her even though at times it was hard for me to be around her because I missed the "old" her so much Eve made sure we visited her often because she loved being around her. I am sad I will never get to introduce Milo to her and I am sad that I have to explain to Eve that her great-grami is in a better place with Jesus and that we won't be able to see her anymore. I need to focus on all the wonderful things my Grandma will get to have now. She is no longer in pain and she will be reunited with her loved ones. She will get to be with my grandpa who was her soul mate. They were the couple that taught me what true love was and how to be in a loving respectful relationship. My grandparents were awesome and I am so thankful to have had them be part of my life. I hope they are lovingly embracing each other and watching down on us knowing how much we love them.

I caved.

I seriously couldnt take the roller coaster of sickness I have had all week and so I went to the urgent care. Turns out I have a sinus infection which is why I haven't been getting better. Now I have me some antibiotics and Flonase so hopefully in just a few short days I will feel as normal as I can. I am so over being sick.