37 week update.

On Thursday we had a growth u/s. He is already measuring 8lbs. 14oz. That is 2 lbs more than Eve was when she was born. She thinks I might have been borderline diabetic and that is why he got so big because I have only gained 17 lbs. I am 3cm and 50% effaced. I was given a few options on what to do since he is so big and Adam and I have been in discussion ever since in regards to the situation. Basically the options given to us were:

1.) Wait to go into labor naturally or get induced around 5/5 and see what happens which after 9 lbs my dr. recommends a c/s due to the risk of baby getting stuck (which gives me until Monday approx. to not have a 9 lb kid.)
2.) Get an amnio done to see if his lungs are fully developed and induce on Monday which could result in a c/s.
3.) Schedule a c/s for sometime after 5/5.

Obviously at this point we are not going with option number 2. Amnio scares me so we won't go with that. Adam is really scared about something happening to me or the baby and is voting for the c/s even though both of us are having a hard time believing he is so big. Maybe I am just in denial but I don't feel like I am carrying a huge baby. I honestly have been much more comfortable this time around. I really really really don't want a c/s. I mean if that is the only way to have him fine but I would like to try for a vaginal delivery. So I think last night we finally made a plan of action that will make us both feel a little more comfortable. If I don't go into labor by Monday I will call the Dr. and ask for another u/s to be done at a different location. I know she might not agree with me but a c/s is a major surgery and if I was ever faced with surgery I would want a second opinion so therefore I think it is fair for me to say let me get another look at this baby and see how rapidly he is growing and if the second u/s tech agrees with the firsts estimate of his weight. From there we would reassess the situation and make a decision about what to do. I want a healthy baby more than anything but I also don't want to have a surgery that I will regret especially if they are off in his measurements.

This whole situation has been eating me up inside since Thursday and I feel robbed of being able to enjoy the last part of my pregnancy. I am all for u/s but I think in this case I would have almost rather been ignorant because I seriously have cried over this everyday. I have super mixed emotions on it. I know that there are worse things that could happen than a c/s but this is not how I pictured the outcome of this pregnancy and I have issues with things not going how I planned them in my head and I know this is totally my issue and God is probably just using this as an example for me to trust in him what will be best and I am trying and praying about it that I can let go of control and let God decide. I am most scared about what will happen both physically and emotionally postpartum wise if I do end up with a c/s but I will blog about that at a later time.