Eve Won!

I entered Eve into a photo contest to win Elmo live tickets. The criteria was to take a picture of your child or family enjoying the newest line of Shamrock products. I entered this picture and Eve won 4th place. I am so excited because we are going to go see Elmo Live! Eve was jumping up and down when I told her. We went last year and it was really cute but expensive. Now hopefully this baby cooperates so that I can go along to the show.

The Excitement Grows.

Last night I was having slightly painful contractions for 2 hours that were about 5 minutes apart and about 45 seconds long. I was worried I was going to be going to the hospital that night when I have so much stuff to do still before he comes. I decided to try and get some sleep and that seemed to make them slow down. I am still getting an occasional contraction but they don't hurt anymore. I am getting excited to meet him and am in desperate need to know if I am making progress at all but I don't go to the Dr. until Thursday.

Today was a lovely day. I woke up and Adam helped me get ready to go out (because that is a real task these days) and I met up with some ladies from work for a little baby shower luncheon. It was so sweet. We were at the restaurant for almost 3 hours chatting. It was absolutely beautiful outside. My mom took Eve to a big sister class at the hospital we are going to deliver at today. She had a lot of fun there. My mom said a baby was born right when they got there because they play Brahms lullaby throughout the hospital when every baby is born. My Dad took Eve to the local global village festival and they made a birdhouse together. Adam got to spend the day playing trains. He also put together the baby swing and bouncy chair. (Last nights labor scare finally got him to finish up some baby stuff.)

Tomorrow our good friend who lives in Colorado is coming to visit for the day because she is in town for work. We haven't seen her in about a year and miss her so much. We are a little sad that her husband isn't coming too because they are just such a fun couple to hang out with.

This weekend has been so relaxing and enjoyable so far. It has been so nice since I felt like the week was such a grind. I am finally starting to relax and am so looking forward for Milo. I can't believe he is going to be here in a matter of weeks. I feel my heart swelling to make room for all the extra love I am going to have for him in addition to the love of Eve. I can't wait to hold him in my arms and see what a great big sister Eve is going to be.

Easter

Looking for eggs!

Excited for what was in the eggs!

We had the nicest relaxing Easter. We were awoken by Eve who was so excited yet waited patiently for us to get out of bed which was a huge accomplishment for the world's most impatient child. She searched around the house and found all 42 of the eggs the Easter bunny hid. She thought it was really silly that the Easter bunny hid one in the fridge and told everyone about it. She played most of the morning with her new toys.

On the scavenger hunt!

At noon we went to my parents. They had set up a scavenger hunt for her presents. They spoil her too much. The hunt was so much fun and she knew exactly what all the clues that I read to her meant. We ran around the house collecting prizes for half an hour. It was really special that my parents put so much thought into it and included all the special things at their house that they share with her. Some of the clues were: Where you will find grandpa juice (vitamin water), where the ghostbusters are (she is obsessed with watching the Ghostbusters movie), where your pillow is etc. It seriously was so sweet. For the rest of the day we hung out and watched Bedtime stories. We then ate dinner and came home. I couldn't have asked for a better Easter and Eve seemed to enjoy herself.

Grandma

My grandma passed away today. I am really sad about it. I thought I would be ok with it because honestly she was not herself and suffering a lot. But I grieve because when I think of her I think of the person she used to be. The person who always spoiled me and would look through the family picture books and tell me stories of our relatives for hours. She would sit on the ground with me and play card and board games. She gave me the gift of a college education and always treated me like I was perfect. I loved her so much and so did Eve. Even though Eve never got to meet the grandma I adored growing up she could see the goodness in her and loved spending time with her even though at times it was hard for me to be around her because I missed the "old" her so much Eve made sure we visited her often because she loved being around her. I am sad I will never get to introduce Milo to her and I am sad that I have to explain to Eve that her great-grami is in a better place with Jesus and that we won't be able to see her anymore. I need to focus on all the wonderful things my Grandma will get to have now. She is no longer in pain and she will be reunited with her loved ones. She will get to be with my grandpa who was her soul mate. They were the couple that taught me what true love was and how to be in a loving respectful relationship. My grandparents were awesome and I am so thankful to have had them be part of my life. I hope they are lovingly embracing each other and watching down on us knowing how much we love them.

I caved.

I seriously couldnt take the roller coaster of sickness I have had all week and so I went to the urgent care. Turns out I have a sinus infection which is why I haven't been getting better. Now I have me some antibiotics and Flonase so hopefully in just a few short days I will feel as normal as I can. I am so over being sick.

And so it begins.

For the last month or so I was pregnant with Eve I got so little sleep. I think it is God's way of helping make the adjustment to lack of sleep once the baby is here not as big of a deal. I am on spring break this week and I had 3 goals: clean and orgnaize the house, sleep, and do homework. It is Wednesday and I have not accomplished one of these goals. My parents had Eve spend the night on Friday and Saturday so I should have been able to sleep until well past ten. No I was up at 7 am both days after waking up a million times to get comfortable and pee. Sunday she came home but I had a head cold so sleep Sunday night/Monday morning was pretty much lost (I was wide awake from 2 am to 6:30 am) by the time I fell into a good sleep there was a cute little 4 year old standing next to me asking me to get up and play. On Monday night/Tuesday morning I was not able to fall asleep until 1:30 am and then got up about every hour to pee and was woken by Miss Eve at 7:30 am. Seriously the child used to sleep until 10 am at least but now I feel blessed if she makes it to 8 am. So last night Adam and I had a tour of the hospital we will be delivering in (not the same one we had Eve at.) We left Eve overnight with my parents again (she loves it there and my parents can't get enough of her.) I am finally starting to feel better so I was excited about the prospect of a good night sleep and getting to sleep in. I must have woken up every hour last night because I just couldn't get comfortable and I was wide awake by 6 am. Seriously all I want is a good night sleep. Just one. I am hoping I start getting tired soon so that I can go back to bed and wake up feeling refreshed enough to complete one of the other goals on my list before I pick up Eve.

Bittersweet.

Today was my due date for the baby we lost. It is also 2 months exactly until Milo is due. I never realized that the 2 dates were exactly 2 months apart.

I have a little vent I need to get off my chest. It really makes me angry to hear people to talk about chemical pregnancies like they aren't a true miscarriage. I don't like when people treat it like it is just a missed period. I was attached to the baby I lost from the second I saw the positive test. I was in love with my baby even if the time was short it still hurt. It was still my child and I was pregnant and cared for it. Just because my miscarriage was early it was still a miscarriage. I wish people would understand that the physical and emotional pain was very real to me and I still sit here teary eyed about it even though I am growing a beautiful baby boy. I still love my angel baby and I always will. I don't even know what else to say so I will just stop now.