Telling the Family.

Today we told our parents and brothers and sisters that we are expecting number two. I had my DD go up to my mom in her shirt and say, "Look at my new shirt Grammy." My mom read it outloud and both of my parents were like "Are you guys expecting again?" They are so excited.

Last night I sent this e-mail to Adam's parents.

They called us today and are really excited. They were already up to their usual antics. "We are too young to have 6 grandkids." Um talk to your younger daughters who each have 2 kids not us legally married late 20 year olds ok. "You need to have a boy so you can carry on our last name." I don't really care if this awful last name gets passed on. You still have another son who has no kids yet to pass it on. I honestly just want a healthy baby. "When you have the baby you need to name him Thomas Adam." No you already have one grandson named Thomas you aren't getting another one named after you. I now refuse to even consider it as a middle name not that I ever really was. Plus we could have a girl. I hate how people assume you need one of each. I honestly would be happy with either. I know it is just how they show excitement but it just annoying.

I sent the same e-mail to my brother and Adam's sister and brother so we will see how they react. I really hope they e-mail me because I have an irrational fear of talking on the phone. I am happy we told everyone even though it is really early. I do like having the support of family.

Mission Accomplished!!!

I took a pregnancy test this morning and it was positive! I am so freaking excited.

Waiting Game

Adam is convinced that I am pregnant. I think he thinks that because it happened so easy with Eve it is go to happen easily again. I keep telling him not to get his hopes up because it could take us a while. If I say anything is ailing me he automatically goes, “It is because you are pregnant.” As much as I would love that to be true I am don’t think I am. The only thing that is odd is that all weekend I have been getting nauseous at night time. I think that is due to the stress from school though.(I have been cramming dinner into my face and then go sit and stress about how I will meet all my deadlines) Otherwise I am crampy and have slightly sore breasts but that is all the usual for pre-period. I know tonight as I was working on my homework I was so worked up trying to get our work done by the deadline that my stomach was in total cramps. I kept thinking if I get my period right now I will lose it. Luckily it hasn’t started yet and I finished the most stressful part of my work. We are in the wait now.

On a side note this afternoon was fun. My G (grandma) came over today and we celebrated her 87th birthday which is really on Wednesday July 2 (for some reason I always think it is the 3rd). To get a little of her birthday luck if I don’t get my period before then I will be testing on Wednesday. We had turkey for dinner and Adam and I broke the wishbone and he won. I am sure his wish was for something stupid like trains or sex where my wish really mattered. I wished I was pregnant. So if I am not I am going to tell him it is his fault for not letting me get my wish to come true. (totally joking)

Group Frustration

Whenever I have to do a group project I get frustrated because although I enjoy the discuss that happens because of all of the input that makes the ideas better I for some reason end up taking on the bulk of the work. Through my masters program I have some amazing groups that have really worked well together but the majority of my group projects have been really frustrating. My masters is completely done online so when we meet in groups we are using online means of communication. Since this is summer school and everything is crammed into 5 weeks you don't always get a chance to really get to know your teammates like you do during a full length class. Classes end on July 1 (5days from now) All of our work is due on or before then and all of a sudden my groups are crapping out on me. I don't know what to do.
Class 1 group:
Tasks to complete: Write a group research paper. Each of us writes 1/3 of the paper and the other 2 edit our section. My piece and Partner D have written great work. Partner H literally copies 90% of the information direct from our textbook and she didn't source the quotes from quotes in the book. I write the resource page up for her and ask D to add it to the final paper. After not feeling good about H's work all weekend I e-mail her and ask her to rewrite her portion using a lot less quotes because I got dinged on my individual research paper for using too many quotes and I only used one per paragraph. I have not heard from either of them since Sunday. It is now Thursday and our paper is due on Sunday. I am freaking out that I will now have to rewrite her paper for her. On top of this I am supposed to review a project that D should have done by Sunday. He hasn't done it yet and my review is due tomorrow. He is not responding to my e-mails.
Class 2 group:
Task to complete: Design a webquest. After we met and came up with a great concept I literally designed the whole entire webquest. Every word is from me. I asked my group members to send my the links to 2 blogs and 3 other websites, and a case study that they wrote. So far Partner B has given me nothing and Partner J gave me 1 blog and a case study. I think my Google works just as well as your Google does. I am not asking for actual work just links people. On top of that once this is put together we have more work to do and they chose to do the rest of the work since I did all the hard work of actually creating the webquest. I am seriously lacking their ability to actually get this done when they can't get me 5 links and a 3 sentence case study in over a week. (3 deadlines we set have past and nothing.) So now I sit here wondering should I just do it all?
I have a 4.0 right now and would really like to keep that going. I want a good grade on these projects. So I sit here writing this because although I should be completing my homework for the semester right now so I can spend the weekend relaxing with Adam and Eve I can't because my groups suck ass!

Fish Food For Thought

So Adam works for a food supplier company and they had a shipment of fish and let their employees take whatever they wanted from so Adam (who is allergic to fish) took a whole bag of assorted fish home for me so I could try some new things. He was in bed and I was trying to pick out one to thaw out for dinner tomorrow but I didn't know what any of them where so I take one of each kind and decided to go see if he is up so he could tell me which one was the yellowfin tuna that I have always wanted to try (I lead a sheltered fish trying life.) So I ask him if he still is awake and he grumbles and I warn him I am going to turn on the light because I have a question for him. So I turn on the light and he must have been so confused because he was falling asleep and here I am with 6 different types of fish in my hand trying to figure out which one is yellowfin tuna. He refuses to open his eyes and my arm starts to freeze so I am getting impatient and keep shoving different fish in his face asking him, “Is this yellowfin tuna?” He finally opens his eyes as I am saying, “This one is halibut right?” He says yes and roles over. He was not going to be anymore help. I wish I had asked earlier because you would think someone that was a cook for 10 years would be able to tell me what a frozen yellowfin tuna looks like. I finally just picked one. Here were my choices of things I still don’t know what they are. Which one do you think is yellowfin tuna? Place your vote in my poll to the right.

Number 1

Number 2

Number 3

Number 4

Number 5

Lunch Date

Eve and I had a lunch date today and it was really fun. This last year has been really hectic for me. I have been going to school full time plus working full time. I feel really bad because although I try to spend time with her it isn’t always easy because there is always work to be done.

This is a typical day that everything runs smoothly on. It doesn’t count Tuesday nights when I would go directly from work to school until 10:00 at night or the nights I work until 7:30 with club sponsorships

6:30~Wake up
7:30~Drive to work
8:00-4:30~Work
4:30-5:00~Drive Home
5:00-5:30~Relax
5:30-6:30~Make and eat dinner
6:30-7:00~Let Eve watch TV.
7:00-8:00~Read Eve 1000 books
8:00~Put Eve to Bed
8:30-12:30~Work on homework and Nest(I need to do something for my sanity.)
12:30-1:00~get ready for bed.
1:00-???~Lay in bed with a list a mile long of things that need to get done.

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I know you are probably thinking what a wuss. Adam is wonderful and does everything I ask on top of going to work all day, but my problem lies in I think my crazy schedule is really unfair to Eve. I love her to pieces and want to spend so much time with her but I just can’t. Even now that it is summer and I don’t have to work I find it difficult to spend time with her. I am taking two summer classes and one of them has an outrageous amount of work involved. I know I am getting my masters so that I can provide more for my family and also so that I can set a good example for Eve in regards to school, but I feel like I am missing out on so much of her life. I guess I just have to remind myself that I start my capstone project in the fall and that will be the beginning of the end (plus my course load will be much lighter.) In the meantime I am trying to create room in my day to do special things just with Eve. Today I took her to tumbling and afterwards we went to Streets of New York and split french fries and a Coke (really healthy I know). I love streets because they are never busy when we go there. It was so nice to sit and giggle with my little girl and talk about letters, numbers, colors, and all of the silly animals noises she knows. I think she must have told me 100 times in the hour we were there that she loved me. I am so happy that we just got some us time because even though she is always supportive of my schooling (she understands “shhh mommy is on a web-conference right now.” means play quietly next to me) I think she miss our goofy time and I know I certainly do too.

A New Adventure

When Adam and I decided to try for Eve it was a hard decision to make. Financially we weren't very well off. We were ok but there wasn't a ton of extra money. We both wanted to be parents so we decided to start trying. During that first month of trying Adam seemed like he was having second thoughts. Looking back I think he was really worried on how we would afford to have a child. I decided that if we didn't get pregnant that cycle I was going to put TTC on hold until Adam seemed more comfortable with the idea. Sometimes I think he just agrees with whatever I want because he wants to make me happy. Well I was pregnant that first cycle. We both seemed excited and Adam made every effort to be able to be at all of my appointments and be supportive. The problem with my pregnancy was we dealt with it in different ways. I wanted to be pampered and have a celebration over every aspect. Adam was scared so he never showed the level of excitement I expected and this made us both really cranky. We were both overjoyed with the outcome it was just the journey that was rough.

Last year we started talking about our timeline for number 2 and I convince him that we should start trying that cycle. He was ok but as the cycle wore on it began to look like the same emotions were overcoming Adam. I think part of it this time was he was in a job he really didn't like. I was hurt and we decided together to put TTC on hold for another year. In that year we have talked a lot about it. He told me he wants another kid but could deal without the pregnancy. He said he was always so worried about me and the baby. He also said he could live without the mood swings :O). I explained to him what I needed was someone who was excited and not crabby about every little detail. I think getting our needs out in the open really took a weight off of our shoulders about the TTC adventure we were about to enter again.

DH and I are excited to be trying for number 2 (currently waiting to O). I think he is truly ready for another child and it isn't him just doing it to make me happy. I am really happy that we waited. He has been saying encouraging things like he is really excited. Yesterday melted my heart a little. I was sitting in a chair and Adam came and sat on top of me and Eve came an sat on top of him. I said, "what is this the whole family sits on mom day?" Adam replied, "Hopefully next year there will be 4 on this chair instead of just 3." I almost started crying because that is what I was looking for. He has been talking more about TTC than me. I love my husband and can't wait to make another precious life with him.