Today's Appointment.

I had a great appointment today. Adam took off of work early so that he could be there. Nothing exciting happened. I got violated for my yearly since I was severly overdue. Weighed and saw I am only 5 lbs away from my final weight with Eve. Not really a good starting point but I will take it. I love my Dr. she is so positive and happy. Being in their office always puts me at ease. She said my uterus felt great and perfect size for how far along we are. I am officially due May 12th. I graduate with my Masters 3 days before. How crazy and wonderful that time will be.
I go back Oct. 29 and get my 1st trimester u/s screening on Oct. 30. I am so excited that everything looks good so far.

New symptoms?

So I have had a bit of nausea on and off for the first week after I found out. Then it went away except when I ate a ham and egg sandwich at Adam's parents house and literally almost threw up half way through. Well tonight I think that awful feeling has returned. My head freaking hurts and my stomach feels like it is going to do inverse operations. It started late this afternoon and I think I am going to have to give up gum because that was seemed to trigger the stomach ache. I tried 3 different flavors and they all made me feel sick. I love gum so this might be hard. What took the nausea to a whole new level was for dinner we had shrimp salad but my mom added a bit of egg to it and guess what? That feeling I got at Adam's parents house has returned and won't go away.
On a side note teaching junior high and being pregnant is really hard. I have this student who loves to wear AXE...you know the proper way they show in the commercial to wear it is to spray the entire can in one sitting. I have already yelled at him 3 times for doing this. It isn't just that he freaking stinks but the fact that he does sprays that crap in my classroom so that I can smell it literally across the room. I have already laid into him about it and not in the nice caring teacher way, in the I will embarrass the crap out of you way. Well today I seriously almost lost my cool completely. I think I laid into him for like 10 minutes about it and then made him stand by the door with the door open so that he would air out for the entire class period. My super smeller cannot handle this and I don't want to let the kiddos know that I am pregnant yet so I can't use that as an excuse but I seriously almost threw up from the smell.
So new symptoms include: super smeller, nausea, and serious bitch.

We spilled the beans.

We finally told my parents. I didn't do anything fancy this time I just came into the kitchen and said, "Hey, we're expecting again." I really wanted to keep it a secret for a while longer but unfortunately after my screaming at Adam across the house that I couldn't do something because I was pregnant and my mom still being home; to Eve talking all week about mommy and daddy having a baby I decided to finally just tell. I am glad it is over. We have a Dr. appointment on Thursday at 3:15 and I usually have to get Eve before 4 because my parents have a night class on Thursdays which means that on a typical Thursday there are like a million calls to see where my parents are so I can meet them. They would have figured it out anyway so we decided to tell. At least my mom didn't insist on telling everyone and their mom. We will keep it quiet. We will let everyone know once we are safely out of the first trimester. I can't believe we kept it a secret for 23 days. That is the longest secret I think I ever kept in my whole life. I am terrible at keeping secrets. I just get way to excited. On a side note I don't understand why Eve has been going around telling everyone that we were expecting. The other day when I went to work she told me to make sure I fed my baby really good so it grows up nice and strong. Adam and I have been trying to be secretive around her because she is a total blabber mouth but somehow she figured it out anyway. She is too freaking smart.

Sooo Sleepy.

Honestly the exhaustion has set in. I can barely function when I am awake. I could take a nap at any given time in the day even if I just woke from a nap. It is making me regret taking such a full class schedule. I cannot motivate myself to do my homework or study at all. I literally wait until the last second. During the week I am worthless because after work I can barely muster enough energy to chew my food an stare blankly at my computer. I get the rare burst of energy. My procrastination leads to freakouts of how I am going to get everything I need to done. I think I am going to start waking up a half hour earlier to work out before work. Hopefully this combined with eating a healthy well balanced diet(my other new obsession) will allow me to have enough energy to function throughout my day and perhaps have a little bit of energy to burn when I get home. I need to stop being so lazy and start living. I have been having a little bit of cramping today which has me freaked out. I seriously need to stop googling and go find my pregnancy books. Google is scary and every time I Google pregnant and cramping it always leads to possible sign of m/c. I really wish the people who wrote this could also put that it is a totally normal sign of pregnancy because it is. I am looking forward to and scared about my appointment on Thursday. I wish I could just speak up and find out exactly what we are going to be doing at the appointment. Am I going to get and u/s or not? Is it going to be a piss and blood test and weight and be told to have a nice day see you in a month. I need some reassurance and I am not the best about speaking up for what I need. I would even be willing to pay for the u/s out of pocket just to know the baby is healthy. I am sure everything is fine and for the most part I am really positive and feel confident about all of this but at other times I am scared out of my mind. I hope this is it. I want a healthy baby more than anything in the world.

I am scared.

Honestly I have never see a bigger time for change in our nation that right now. I am totally scared about what the elections are going to bring. Honestly if I could choose one thing right now to base my election choice on it would be the economy. Honestly the economy is so bad right now that even "secure" jobs such as teaching are no where near being secure. We have had major cutbacks in our district and they are threatening even more next year. We might lose programs that are making a huge difference in the lives of our students. We are already working with the bare minimum support financially and I can't believe they can cut more. My dad who has never lost a job in his life lost his job 3 times in the past 2 years due to companies being closed and filling for bankruptcy. Adam lost his job twice in one year. They both worked in the real estate world so that has a lot to do with why business is slow and thankfully both my father and Adam have found jobs that are not in the real estate business world anymore but even at their new jobs there have been layoffs and every time Adam calls me I worry that he is calling me to tell me he got let go again (even though I doubt that will happen.) This was not something I ever feared before. For a few months I was the only person in my family with a job. I hope no one ever has to feel what that is like because while I was busy trying to educated 130 students everyday I was also worried about how my family was going to find new jobs in a market where few people are hiring and knew that many of my students were going through similar situations. My school as lost 500 students in the last 3 years because their parents had to move elsewhere for jobs. I live in the great state of Arizona where Mr. John McCain is from and this is what is happening here. What is he doing to make life better where he has lived? Nothing because let me tell you it is bad. This is one issue I could go on and on and on about. I am scared about our environment with people who want to drill for something that might not even be there. If you can't draw the line there where do you draw the line? I am scared we will continue to fight a war that we shouldn't be fighting. I am so sad that so many people are disillusioned about George Bush, John McCain, and Sarah Palin as being true Americans who are fighting for our freedom. I doubt they understand what is like to be an average citizen who don't have millions sitting in their bank accounts waiting for them when they lose their jobs. I seriously can't understand how any middle class person can vote republican. They do not have your best interests at heart. They will do what is needed to keep the rich afloat and create an even greater divide between the rich and the poor. I want a greater America where those who chose to work hard has a chance to be successful. I want an American where we can agree to disagree over issues and not have others views forced upon me. I know now that people are starting to not like Bush as much I often hear "well we voted him into office." I hate that. I didn't vote him into office either time because I predicted he would be another repeat of his father but worse and I was correct. I honestly can't see one positive change that he made. I am worried of another 4 years of the same. I want change and I hope that this time America will agree with me.

My Sweetie.

Every morning this week Eve has woken up with me. She is so happy and sweet in the morning. As I rush around getting ready she pops out of bed and says, "Good Morning Mommy!" In the most cheerful voice you can imagine. I am a total crank in the morning and it totally puts me in a great mood to see her so happy. We hang out for a while and she follows me around while I get ready creating a gate at every door so I have to give her a kiss to get through. Then as I head to work she tells me to stay home with her. When I tell her I have to go to work she tells me to take her heart with me, and then tells me to bring home a present from my work. (which usually is a bottle of water or lemonade) Seriously I almost have left the house in tears every morning this week. I need to win the lotto so I can stay home. I love my sweet munchkin so much.

We are back.

We went to Wisconsin for the weekend at it was interesting to say the least. Being with Adam's family makes me feel like I am on Jerry Springer. I will update tomorrow or Tuesday for anybody that would like to see a recap of the drama filled weekend.