Advertising.

Well Eve has begun to get suckered in by advertising. Whenever she is watching TV and sees something she wants she tells me to add it to her Santa list. Then at random times she talks about how Santa is going to get this thing she saw on tv. So far she has 2 items she hasn't stopped talking about and they are 2 toys I don't really want to get her because they are kind of lame.


First she wants a water baby.

Secondly she wants a rolling puppy.She already has 10 thousand stuffed animals and I refuse to buy her anymore.

Can't wait.

I ordered 2 bella bands on Sunday. Why? Because I am already so bloated that I can't stand to have my pants buttoned. Yes I know I am only 5 weeks and I have a long way to go but my cloths were snug prebaby so this added bloat makes my pants dig into my belly. I learned something when I was pregnant with Eve which was I couldn't stand to have anything remotely tight around my stomach while pregnant. I was in materinity pants at 7 weeks with her because of this issue. I really though I could wait that long with this baby too but I bought them on Sunday so that when the time comes I am prepared. Well that time was today and I still haven't gotten them. I went to put on my pants this morning and they closed after I sucked it in a little. The problem came when I went to tie my shoe. I bent over and seriously couldn't breath while bent over because my pants were cutting so far into my stomach that I was holding my breath like I was straining. When I sat back up I realized this feeeling didn't go away and realized how miserable I was going to be all day. My pants have button and 2 clasps. If I buttoned the button but left the clasps undone it gave it an extra 1/2 and inch. This was a tiny relief but I still had a red mark on my tummy when I took them off. I am a little worried about how much weight I have gained and am a little scared to step on the scale. I have been eating way to much from fear it will all change soon. With Eve I never wanted to eat anything, but had to force feed myself. I asked Adam if he would mind rolling me around like Violet from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory when I become so fat that I can't walk anymore. He said he was cool with that.

Eve's Laugh.

I was asking Adam to go to McDonald's to pick up a big mac for me. Eve was trying to get Adam to take her along and Adam said only if Mommy comes too. I am exhausted and just got home from working 12 hours. I am laying around in my bathrobe and said I don't want to come because I don't want to get dressed. Adam said that I should come in my bathrobe. At this point Eve started laughing uncontrollably while I informed Adam I would not be going in my bathrobe. Eve the said, "That is so funny. You guys make me laugh so hard." When I asked her why she said, "That would be so funny if you went to McDonald's in your bathrobe Mommy." I love how smart she is and that she can see how ridiculous her daddy's suggestion was, but the best part of the whole thing was to hear that big hearty laugh she gets when she thinks something is really funny.

Pictures.

So I know I started this blog to share pictures and stories of Eve and I have kind of been slacking on that an focusing more on myself lately but the truth is that it is hard to take pictures of Eve. The kid does not like to wear clothes around the house and the only time I ever think to take pictures of her is when we are at home since that is where the camera is. I am not saying she has to look perfect for every picture but I would at least like her to be clothed in her pictures so all of the sickos out their don't see my child naked. Why don't we make her wear clothes around the house? Simply because I would like to be naked all day too and don't really see what the big deal is. My mom dresses her every morning and the clothes last about 2 hours and it is not a fight I want to pick. I would rather make sure she eats healthy and is learning than making sure she stays clothed all day. So on the rare occasion that she is dressed and I have the camera out we take pictures but it is becoming a rarity these days. I really should stop buying the kid clothes because she only wears them in public and her wardrobe is more expensive than mine and Adam's combined.

Little Miss Attitude.

Adam was trying to get Eve to go watch TV in the other room, but she wanted to stay in here with me. So Adam helped Eve off the floor and sent her on her way to the other room and she turned to him in her snottiest attitude and said, "Dida, why are you always telling me what to do?" She may be sweet most days but she knows how to cock an attitude in 3 seconds flat when things don't go her way.

It got darker!

I am so excited.

Yesterday I talked to Adam about how he was feeling about all of this. He said he doesn't want to get too attached until we hear the heartbeat. I understand how he is feeling but he better make up for lack of emotional attachment after we hear the heartbeat. I think he is scared because he actually got super excited about the last baby and just doesn't want his heart broken again.

I really think this is the real deal. I felt different like something was wrong from the beginning with the last pregnancy and this one just feels right. I also have more symptoms this time. My boobs hurt like a biznatch and I am so freaking gassy I can clear a room in about 1 sec. I have been pretty crampy but I think it is a mixture of growing pains and gas pains. I have been a little tired but I am sure that is due to my freakishly long days this week and the lack of sleep that I will blog about later. Twice this weekend I woke up an almost puked so I think I need to stop eating so close to bedtime because the same thing happened when I was pregnant with Eve.

We did it again???

Well this morning AF was due and she hasn't shown so I took a test and got a TFP (Tiny Faint Positive). I am a little concerned because it is FRER and they were super dark when I got my BFP with Eve and medium with the last pregnancy. It should have been a nice dark line but it is seriously light but totally there. I am going to retest on Wednesday and if it gets darker by then I will feel more confident. I know they say a line is a line but with the last pregnancy I took 2 tests and the lines faded instead of getting darker and when I was pregnant with Eve I took two tests and they got darker. The only reason I could see that it is off is perhaps I o'd later than usual. This was the one month I decided not to temp. I know they say the darkness of the line doesn't matter but I am just concerned because of the previous m/c. So I am excited but we will have to wait and see what happens.