This Weekend.

This weekend has been really blah and I wish I could have one more day off.
Yesterday Eve went to Disneyland with my parents. I miss her but honestly it is nice to have a break from her. She was being a stinker this morning I guess and wouldn't do anything that my parents wanted.
We went to see DMB last night. It was an ok concert but I would have liked if they had play a few more popular songs. I knew 3 songs all night and 1 of those was Burning Down the House which isn't even by them. I think the concert would have been 110% better if it was at an indoor stadium. We were supposed to have great seats but they ended up being way off to the side and they only had a video on the main part of the stage and we couldn't see it. I am not sure why they didn't project their videos onto the 2 side screens which would have made it better. I was surrounded by giants. My DH is 6'1" and everyone around us was even taller than him. I am 5'2" and I couldn't see over anyone. It was still 100 degrees when we got in the car to go home. I seriously have never been so hot in my entire life. I felt hungover today even though I didn't drink last night and had about 10 bottles of water. I will never go to another concert there again unless I can sit in the middle and it is during winter time. The best part was getting felt up as you walked through the gates. They pat down everyone totally cops style. They have a separate line for girls and boys and they make you empty your pockets and then caress your whole body. It was great.

Today Adam and I had to take our cats to the humane society. It was really sad. We have been trying for 6 months to find someone else to take them and every time we get someone lined up it fell through. We are out of options. They seriously are the sweetest cats and I hope they get adopted. I am trying to not think about what else could happen to them but it is hard. They can't live with us because my mom is allergic to them. If you are reading this please don't judge me because I feel terrible but it was our only option. I will never get another pet because I don't ever want to have to make a choice like that again. I feel like a total douche.

On a good note Adam and I made a fabulous dinner. I love spending time with just him. It was something I totally took for granted before we had Eve.

Work Update.

Well the good news is currently we are not losing any teachers but the bad news is that they want to create a study skills classes in place of the small classes. Mathematically it makes no sense because if you aren't getting rid of anybody or any sections but just rearranging where the students are then it will just make the classes you are taking the students from smaller. Shuffling the students doesn't make the problem disappear. It simply makes the problem shift from one teacher to another. This whole thing is stupid. What needs to happen is she needs to get rid of some extended contracts. We all have to work an extra hour. I think they need someone who can think logically about the schedule in there trying to get this crap straightened out. I think it is ridiculous that 3 weeks into the school year we have to keep messing with the schedule to make it work and it is going to take at least another week for this mess to unfold into another mess. I feel so bad for our students because they are going to have to give up their elective to take this class. So next week I will be teaching this study skills class and honestly it is a joke and I am not going to put any extra effort into the class. Just what I wanted to do this year was teach a made up class with no curriculum. Thanks a lot. I now have one foot out the door and it is going to take something pretty big to keep me at my current school next year.

A mini vent

Today seemed to be a day where there were a lot of rough patches. First of all I sat through my 4th straight morning meeting and this one there were a whole lot of rude and obnoxious teachers who don't seem to understand manners or listening. Upon the return to my classroom after the second bell and all the kids sitting outside my room waiting patiently I got everyone in and settled (I have great students) and checked my voicemail. I will be having another meeting tomorrow before school. So in 5 days I will have had 6 meetings outside of school hours. Tomorrow's meeting will take the cake. The implied topic is that we have to cut teachers. Our enrollment is down and I think we will have to lose a teacher. Who knew that adding an extra hour for all teachers would mean we need one less teacher? Oh that would be me, but apparently I am the only one who knew how to do the math. So I feel really bad that this is going to happen and then I feel really selfish because I don't want to have to have my schedule all overturned 3 weeks into the school year. I am really frustrated also that next week I have to give up 2 full days of instruction for some random crap that we have to go over with the students. I have a crap ton of stuff to teach my students and I can't afford to give up instructional days. Anyway enough work. I am trying to stay positive and uninvolved so I don't get all bent out of shape. Did I mention I start my own classes next week when all of this change will take place.

Today one of my students started telling me about how there were 4 kids in her family but her older brother died when he was born because the umbilical cord was around his neck. Then all the other students started telling me about how their parents have had multiple miscarriages. I held it together during this whole discussion and didn't show any sign of my own. I am really proud of myself. Then later I had some students come visit that I had 4 years ago and they were telling me how almost all the kids from our school have kids now except for the kids in the AVID program who have all done well. It was hard to hear about the 15+ teens they know who are pregnant or already have a baby. Some of them have already had multiple pregnancies and these kids are only 16-17. It really breaks my heart. So overall today has been a little crazy and I am happy to be at home and am looking forward to having a nice stiff drink tomorrow.

KSTDT2.

Kids say the darnedest things will now be referred to as KSTDT.

Adam, Eve, and I are all laying on the couch watching TV and I ask Adam if I can have one of his donuts. He said sure and Eve asked if she could have a little one too (doughnut hole). I said sure we'll get them in a minute. She turned to Adam and said, "Will you get Mommy a big doughnut and me a little doughnut? Mommy and me are lazy." I think I have some bad habits I need to break.

Kids say the darnedest things

Adam and Eve are 2 rooms away from each other so imagine shouting from room to room.
Eve: Daddy.
Adam: This is daddy I can't come to the phone right now please leave a message after the beep.
Eve: Hi Daddy this is Eve in my bedroom could you please get me something to drink?

We were both rolling on the floor laughing.

I am not alone.

So Adam was telling me how today at work there was a guy at work whose wife just had a baby and they came in and showed the baby off to everyone and it made him really sad. This is the first time he has said something made him upset about it. I am glad that he let me know it made him sad because I know that there are still times when I totally think I am ok and then something happens that makes me sad and I am glad I am not the only one who feels this way. It really has me choked up right now thinking about him being disappointed but at the same time I know that when we have our next child it will make it that much more sweet. God has his reasons and I trust that God will bless us with another child when it is our time.

Food Baby.

So ever since the beginning of summer Adam has been putting on weight. It is hilarious because he has been twig thin ever since I met him. He eats whatever he wants and never gains an ounce. The only time he put weight on before was when I was pregnant with Eve and as soon as she was born the weight gain stopped. Well I think his body doesn't understand that I am not pregnant anymore because he is still getting bigger. Don't get me wrong I am in no way saying he is getting fat or that he is getting unattractive because I still think he is gorgeous. He is finally beginning to look like a normal person and not anorexic. I keep teasing him about his weight gain by telling him he is having a food baby and then rubbing his stomach. We both giggle and it is done. Well Eve now thinks everyone is having a food baby and we all have to keep eating to get them nice and big. This has helped her kind of deal with the loss (she finally stopped asking at random times why did your baby die? or When are you going to get another baby?) and also helped her start eating better so we kind of let it go. Her new habit though is to talk about food babies all the time and she is very imaginative. She keeps talking about how her food baby is going to come next week and then she keeps pulling up everyones shirt and asking how their food baby is. Then she gives you a raspberry. It is seriously hilarious but I am scared she is going to start doing this outside the house.