Food Baby.

So ever since the beginning of summer Adam has been putting on weight. It is hilarious because he has been twig thin ever since I met him. He eats whatever he wants and never gains an ounce. The only time he put weight on before was when I was pregnant with Eve and as soon as she was born the weight gain stopped. Well I think his body doesn't understand that I am not pregnant anymore because he is still getting bigger. Don't get me wrong I am in no way saying he is getting fat or that he is getting unattractive because I still think he is gorgeous. He is finally beginning to look like a normal person and not anorexic. I keep teasing him about his weight gain by telling him he is having a food baby and then rubbing his stomach. We both giggle and it is done. Well Eve now thinks everyone is having a food baby and we all have to keep eating to get them nice and big. This has helped her kind of deal with the loss (she finally stopped asking at random times why did your baby die? or When are you going to get another baby?) and also helped her start eating better so we kind of let it go. Her new habit though is to talk about food babies all the time and she is very imaginative. She keeps talking about how her food baby is going to come next week and then she keeps pulling up everyones shirt and asking how their food baby is. Then she gives you a raspberry. It is seriously hilarious but I am scared she is going to start doing this outside the house.

Our Anniversary

Our 5th anniversary was on 8.8.08. We went to Sedona for the weekend. It was so beautiful and relaxing. When we arrived it was sunny out and by the time we checked in it was pouring rain. The same thing happened the day we got married and were checking in to the hotel. Most of the pictures are from our balcony. There was the most beautiful full rainbow and in one spot there was a double rainbow. We could see both ends of the rainbow from our room. These pictures don't nearly do justice to how beautiful it is in Sedona.

SIL Update.

My ex-SIL had her open heart surgery on Friday and she is doing well. Thank you for those who prayed for her. Please keep her in your prayers for a smooth recovery.

A tiny vent (TMI).

This period is very similar to my m/c and it is making me depressed. I can't wait until it is over because there are huge clots and I feel so exhausted. I wish I could just sleep through all of this but unfortunately I have to work. On the positive side I am not totally hating work yet. I can't wait to start setting up my classroom tomorrow even though it is going to be a lot of work. I miss my friends but I am able to get a lot done because I won't spend all my time chatting with them.

Prayers Needed.

My brothers ex-wife and mother of my niece has been told she will need open heart surgery very soon. Tomorrow she will have more test done and they will set the date for the surgery. Apparently one of the valves leading to her heart is not right. Most people have a valve that is 3cm and at 5cm it is considered to be very bad. Hers is 8cm. She is only 33. I can't imagine her not being in my nieces life. She is in danger of having a heart attack at any moment. Please pray that she stays healthy until she has the surgery and that the surgery will go smoothly.

The end is here.

I go back to work tomorrow so my summer vacation is over. I am really sad about it. I will miss spending my days goofing around and being lazy. I will really miss spending time with Eve. She has been my ray of sunshine all summer. She always knows how to make me happy. I will miss the million kisses I get during the day. I am not looking forward to working 9 hours a day and waking up at 5:30 am. I am not a morning person at all. I am not looking forward to only spending 3 hours a weekday with Eve while she is awake. I wish I could stay home. Never before have I ever wanted to be a stay at home mom but I would do anything to make that happen but I know it is not possible. Maybe next year I can work from home. We will have to see what the future holds for us.

On another sad note. I am not pregnant this month. Of course I started spotting tonight and that means I will have my period full force for my first day back at work. On the brighter side my period is a few days early so that by the weekend it should be gone which means that hopefully I can enjoy some loving on my anniversary. I can't wait until Friday so we can get out of town and just spend time the two of us.

So goodbye summer and goodbye cycle #2. May God teach me grace to accept what the past has held and openness to what the future brings. I hope I can stay positive because it will be a rough week and I want to conquer it not the other way around.

Big Girl Bike

Eve learned to ride her big girl bike this weekend. We brought the bike in the house and worked on peddling. It was too hot to do it outside and she loves being in the house so we though we would give it a try. She has been able to ride her tricycle for a long time but the big girl bike really scared her so this was a big accomplishment. She was having the hardest time peddling but finally figured it out. She even took a huge spill after catching her handlebar on my mom's pants. She got a couple of bruises and a scrape on her chin but with it 45 minutes asked all on her own if she could ride her bike some more. This was so amazing coming from my child that seems to be afraid of anything that could be dangerous. Now when she is riding around the house and someone gets near her she says "no butts in my way!" It is her goofy way of saying stay out of my way. She never stops amazing us with what she has accomplished. She is getting more and more independent everyday. I am so proud of her.