Prayers Needed.

My brothers ex-wife and mother of my niece has been told she will need open heart surgery very soon. Tomorrow she will have more test done and they will set the date for the surgery. Apparently one of the valves leading to her heart is not right. Most people have a valve that is 3cm and at 5cm it is considered to be very bad. Hers is 8cm. She is only 33. I can't imagine her not being in my nieces life. She is in danger of having a heart attack at any moment. Please pray that she stays healthy until she has the surgery and that the surgery will go smoothly.

The end is here.

I go back to work tomorrow so my summer vacation is over. I am really sad about it. I will miss spending my days goofing around and being lazy. I will really miss spending time with Eve. She has been my ray of sunshine all summer. She always knows how to make me happy. I will miss the million kisses I get during the day. I am not looking forward to working 9 hours a day and waking up at 5:30 am. I am not a morning person at all. I am not looking forward to only spending 3 hours a weekday with Eve while she is awake. I wish I could stay home. Never before have I ever wanted to be a stay at home mom but I would do anything to make that happen but I know it is not possible. Maybe next year I can work from home. We will have to see what the future holds for us.

On another sad note. I am not pregnant this month. Of course I started spotting tonight and that means I will have my period full force for my first day back at work. On the brighter side my period is a few days early so that by the weekend it should be gone which means that hopefully I can enjoy some loving on my anniversary. I can't wait until Friday so we can get out of town and just spend time the two of us.

So goodbye summer and goodbye cycle #2. May God teach me grace to accept what the past has held and openness to what the future brings. I hope I can stay positive because it will be a rough week and I want to conquer it not the other way around.

Big Girl Bike

Eve learned to ride her big girl bike this weekend. We brought the bike in the house and worked on peddling. It was too hot to do it outside and she loves being in the house so we though we would give it a try. She has been able to ride her tricycle for a long time but the big girl bike really scared her so this was a big accomplishment. She was having the hardest time peddling but finally figured it out. She even took a huge spill after catching her handlebar on my mom's pants. She got a couple of bruises and a scrape on her chin but with it 45 minutes asked all on her own if she could ride her bike some more. This was so amazing coming from my child that seems to be afraid of anything that could be dangerous. Now when she is riding around the house and someone gets near her she says "no butts in my way!" It is her goofy way of saying stay out of my way. She never stops amazing us with what she has accomplished. She is getting more and more independent everyday. I am so proud of her.

TMI, Vent, and My Favorite.

Eve Trying to convince us to let her stay up longer.

So every night when Eve goes to bed she likes to procrastinate. She always has to go to the bathroom a million times and goes ever single time. It gets really annoying. I am hanging out and down the hall I hear, "Moooooommmmmy, I have to go POOOOOPPPPPIIIIIEEEE!" Then I get the pleasure of checking it out. She always tells you to close your eyes and then yells, "Surprise!" when you go in there. I guess it all goes back to potty training. Apparently we got way to excited that she feels it must continue. But let me tell you this kid can poop like no other kid know to man which is hilarious because she barely eats these days.

My other least favorite part of bedtime is reading. I swear the kid has to have at least 10 books read to her every night. I feel bad for saying no but honestly I am beginning to loath bedtime. If I have to read Green Eggs and Ham one more time I will turn green. It wouldn't be so bad if I had to just read the books but I must do it with all the different voices. I end up so tired at the end I almost pass out while going through the motions. I never get to go right to bed though because she will keep calling for me every five minutes once she needs something. Yes I know I am the parent but I hate making her cry around bedtime because it draws this whole process out 5 times as long. What happened to the good old days of crying it out. She can cry for hours now and does not even begin to get sleepy.

She was just out of bed and would not listen to my repeated requests for her to go back to bed. Honestly I was being lazy and didn't want to get up to physically put her back in bed because I am tired. She just stood there so I yelled at her. I feel really bad because she went away for a minute came back with tears in her eyes and said, "Mommy please don't yell at me. I love so much." I am such a schmuck. Eve is the most compassionate kid ever who is always trying to make everyone around her laugh, smile, and be happy. And what do I do? I rip her head off because I am being lazy. So I tucked her back in bed and said sorry for yelling at her and huggled and kissled (what she calls it) her. She told me she hopes I have sweet dreams and now she is finally off to slumber land...I think.

But I have to say even though I complain about putting her to bed my favorite part of the day is when she is awake. Especially when she just wakes up. If I get up before her I just want to wake her up because I missed her so much. Usually she wakes me up though and always comes in my room and climbs in bed and brushes my hair out of my face and whispers..."Mommy, I love you. Will you wake up and play with me?" Who doesn't want to wake up like that? I will be sad when I have to go back to work next week and can't spend as much time with her. She really is a sweet little girl.

She will be swimming soon.

Eve has been able to swim around the pool with her floaties for the last 2 summers. Honestly she can almost swim as fast as me and I am a pretty good swimmer. We have wanted to have her try swimming without her floaties all summer but she always says it is too dangerous. I guess we really ingrained in her that she has to be careful around the pool. Anyway she has a nervous breakdown every time you mention taking the floaties off and then freaks if you get near her. Well today I was done swimming and went to sit at the side of the pool and she came and joined me. She said she was done too so we took the floaties off and she always either throws them over the pool fence or in the pool. She did one of each and Adam wouldn't give the pool one back to her unless she walked on the stair that goes all the way around the pool. She finally agreed to do it. Then after a new game developed over getting the floatie in the pool she let Adam hold her stomach and let her swim without her floaties. I am so proud of her. She swam the length of the pool probably 10 times. Adam did such an amazing job of comforting her and making sure she felt safe that by the end she was all smiles. I can't wait until she is brave enough to try on her own. I know she can do it. I guess we will have to go swimming every night now.

Eve's Room.

I have been wanting to update Eve's room for a long time but haven't found what I was looking for before now. I got the Pottery Barn Kids catalog in the mail yesterday and totally feel in love with one of the sets in there. I think I am going to have to buy it for her even though Adam said she is fine with what she has now. Notice he never actually said no so he hasn't forbid me from doing it yet. I think secretly he likes it too but is such a cheap butt that he would let her keep her current set until she moved out. I will probably wait until I get my first paycheck before I go all out and splurge on it. It is back ordered right now anyway so I might as well wait. Her room was Tinkerbell so we are already rocking the pink, purple, and green colors so it isn't like I need to completely redo everything in her room just the bedding for now and perhaps a new coat of paint in a couple of months.

Positive.

I think I have been so negative lately and that isn't the direction I want my life to be right now. I have been praying for God to help me see the positive in everything from here forward and to help me let go of the negativity in my life.

It is amazing how God listens. I was giving Adam a hard time today about stupid stuff I wanted him to do put he didn't want to. I was just joking with him and then he was telling me how he was going to have to work 2-3hrs overtime per day for a while. Although I miss him terribly while he is at work I know it is a good thing because it means extra money for us which I like. He is such a good man that takes on so much responsibility. I was reminding him that I don't mind if he works overtime but he needs to get off at a decent time on 8.8.08 because it is our anniversary and we are going to go out of town to celebrate. He said he already discussed it with his coworker. He said told his coworker, "My wife and I have been together for 6.5 years and are coming up on our 5 year wedding anniversary. It really has been the best 6.5 years and I hope we have 50 more together." How sweet is Adam to say that. I love him more everyday and am so thankful that I get to be his wife. His co-worker agreed to pick up the slack that day so we could get out of town at a decent time. It just amazes me what a great man I married. I am the luckiest girl in the whole world. Not only do I have the best husband in the whole world I also have one fabulous daughter too. So when I start complaining about everything in the world around me I am going to just think back to this so I can remember I have a lot to be happy and thankful for.